Monday, March 31, 2008
Coffee & IYou know, I hated coffee. I hated the flavor. Bitter.
But now, I grew to like it. More than ever, probably. Dont get me wrong, I still like soda & other beverages. Just I am in favor of coffee nowadays.
I like it sweet,... how would you like your coffee?
Labels: coffee
im done atx 3:44 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
annoyance....
lately, i am so easily annoyed. even by the smallest thing i encountered. feel like exploding, sometimes even with no reason. feel like im dyin' from inside.
i dont even feel like socializing with people. noone will notice anyway, i wonder untill how long i will able to fool them. home is not even an option,.... a safe harbour? i even feel more annoyed when im at home.
if you can call that home... anyway.
im overflown by emotions. i used to able to control this kind of impulses. why not now?
before, whenever i saw kid(s). i'd be like "oh fucking toddler..." and that's that. but like couple days ago, i'd feel like smacking 'em and remove em from my path. that's bad, i know. but somehow i really dont feel like being polite anymore.
am i just bad. spoiled... or what?
i wanna kill someone. and get away with it....
im done atx 4:15 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
.... sometimes life takes a weird turn, and that's where it took a suprising twist.
I do admit I dont like anything suprising. I'd prefer something I planned work out, instead I got caught in something I dont know what to anticipate. (good things excluded, of course)
I dislike annoyance. I dislike standing out. I dislike people.
why? you ask? I dont know.
maybe I'm just being a stubborn & arrogant prick. which I am, probably.
a friend called me snobbish. I have to say I have to disagree on that. but heck, I dont know. maybe its just what people think of me.
ended up here in indonesia is not something out of my expectations. like I said, sometimes life takes a weird turn. a little twist, in your everyday life.
I felt like a child that's thrown in a weird pool. trying to swim, and sunk.
wherever I go, I'd probably end the same.
.......................................... I'm just that stupid
im done atx 2:49 AM
Friday, March 07, 2008
dear god,.....
dear god, thou art in heaven.... hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come...
i bid thee my apology, as I havent always been your loyalest disciple.
i dunno what to say thou, i guess ill just drop by and say hello...
im not the greatest person with words & such.... and i dont wish for something big. i just hope you are ok, doing all fine & well. listen to some prayers, blessing some and granting some wishes.
but nonetheless, feel sorry for you for not able taking some break.
thy will shall be done, on earth as it is in heaven...
so God, how are you today?
Labels: god, hello
im done atx 3:07 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
RF OnlineThis game exists not only in Indonesia but there's U.S.A version as well. Too bad the first time I'm introduced to this game is to Indonesian version. So basically, the poor version of MMORPG.
This game basically demands quite a specification if you want to pull the max experience out of it. RAM & Video card are top priority to check whenever you want to play this game on its top performance.
RF online is a 3D game with maps divided in large parts. You can roam free from point A to point B, quite a large area. But from one large map to another, you will need to load it first. RF online has several servers. You cant meet other people from different servers. And one account can only contains one race, but its possible to have characters in different servers on one account.
The game itself has three races. Bellato (Humanoid), Cora (Elves), Accretia (Machine). Speciality of each races made the choice quite difficult, because each of speciality is very interesting. Bellato has Beam Out, a huge machinery. A big robot -gorilla-like- armed with great armor for defense and great weapons for offense. Cora has Spirits with their own abilities, Isis is their top offense. Accretia has an armed striker (launcher), a class that is able to fire simultaneously and able to inflict huge damage as well.
It has military hierarchy as well. Archon as the highest ruler and Vice Archon as second in command.
This game is free to play, and to finance the game company it has an item hall (to enhance your gameplay) system. The game itself has a quite interesting gameplay. You will need to increase points in each ability of yours by yourself. You will not get bonus or anything level-wise. You will gain bonus by getting hit (defense), using shield + performed a succesfull block (shield), using a long range weapon (long range), using a short range weapon (melee), and race speciality (e.g: launcher for accretia)
Long story short, this is a game you need to play of your own to get the maximum out of it. I rated this game as awesome!
FYI:
I'm playing as a gunner class (striker) and my race is Accretia, Lunar server(Indonesian version)Labels: MMORPG, Online Game, RF Online
im done atx 2:59 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
FOOD, FOOD, FOOD...These couple weeks I've been spoiled with different tastes & delicious foods. Familiar tastes nor unfamiliar one. Quite interesting how my tastebuds have evolved. I've come to like some food I dislike, and enstranged by taste of foods I thought were delicious back then.
And it has quite a big impact on my body. LOL, I came to Indonesia with a weight of 54kg. After 1.5 months in Indo I weighted 58kg. But after I went back to Surabaya, my weight took a free fall to 50-51kg. Now I'm 54-ishkg. Ok enough about my weight. I felt like a sissy complaining about my weight. LOL!
Pempek Palembang,
I am struck with the deliciousness of this snack. Origin is Palembang, Sumatra. Its made from flour & fish meats & spices. Mold onto one and boiled so it'll form a glomp-o-meat. Served fried/re-boiled. With dipsauce made of acid, lime, sugar, and shreds of abon.
Ketoprak,
Really something to fill your stomach when you are out gaming. Origin is Middle Java. Ingredients of Ketoprak are, pieces of lontong (a glomp of a formed boiled rice), pieces of fried tofus, rice vermicellis, tauges. Served with peanut sauce and prawn crackers on top of it.
Tahu Tek,
Looks very gross when you first saw it, but dont get it wrong. ITS YUMMY! It'll look like a mold of muds & shit, but it's the SHIT dude. It sure is delicious. Origin is unknown, I think it's Middle Java thou. It contains pieces of fried tofus, shredded fried eggs, pieces of fried potatoes, tauges. Served with a mix of prawn pate & peanut sauce and prawn crackers on top of it. Spicyness to your liking.
Kwee Tiauw,
Thick rice vermicelli. Origin is Medan, Sumatra. There's alot variety of this dish. Can be serve fried, fried with sauce, or with broth boullions.
Fried Duck,
Indonesian fried Duck, its really something. Distinguished with the great smell & yellowness of it. Origin is unknown. Served with sambal (If you like it with, FYI). Eat it with rice & duck oil.
GM Noodle,Actually it's just chinese noodle served with chicken & mushrooms and chicken broth boullion. But this GM outlet has a very nice noodle. FYI: not purchaseable outside of Jakarta, Indonesia.
I've eaten alot, but most of them are not really Indonesia-only. So, not really something to bother with. Japanese food here is not really delicious or cooked like the way it supposed to be. Althou, considering I've been only to Japanese-fast-food-outlet so I came onto conclusion that there's level of deliciousness here. Depends what you like & your money of course.
Oh right, by the way... steak sucks here.
im done atx 2:54 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
some weekend I spent staying over in a foreign city (heck it felt like a foreign country for me)It sure is very ironic. I am officially an Indonesian yet I felt so alienated in my own country. How tragic,...I do understand I cant act the way I acted back in Holland. But from my point of view, I am no different than any foreigner here in Indonesia. Yet, because my appearance is really Indonesian. People took everything for granted that I will know every custom, norm and courtesy here in Indonesia.
I am willing to learn, but noone is willing to teach me. Unlike when a real foreigner (real as in appearance) came to Indonesia. People will say, "oh he's not accustomed to Indonesian custom" and other comments that's giving understanding of him being a foreigner. Unfortunately the same appreciation is not given to me, despite that I am a foreigner myself. So its a discrimination within my own race & country. People will not give me the same understanding as they will give others.
Such a shame, such a pity.
Especially elders here, thinking they are all high & mighty. I spit on those. And IMHO, they can kiss can kiss my ass goodbye. Truthfully even towards elders in holland, there's no different. I will pay my respect, because when they are at fault they will admit and apologize gracefully. And those kind of people deserves the highest respect from the deepest part of my heart. I am now like awaken from my deepest slumber. I used to think that Indonesia like a paradise, a heaven, a harbor to ease my broken heart. And I used to have a homesick towards Indonesia. But guess what? It's all bogus now. An illusion....
Indonesian, are infamous for their hospitality... yet I am now aware of their other sides as well.
Attitude of Indonesian that I paid quite an attention, they will bully weaker one. Not all of course, but from what I've seen it's mostly like that. You will be treated as royals here, if you have the money to pay the luxury that is. People will bow down to you, heck they will fucking KISS YOUR ASS if you order them to do so. Just wave with stacks-o-money (loads of money) and people will cherish you as if you are their king. Unfortunately it will attract thieves & robbers. So do it with caution. LOL!
Money talks, I witnessed it with my own eyes. And some people, unfortunately... think that they are able to buy love with their money as well. I saw living proves daily on TV & Newspapers. Beautiful & gorgeous ladies (too bad they are quite after luxury and wealth obviously) married fugly & fat & hideous men (althou they are quite rich & succesful). Now I ask you, some of them might married their partners because of love despite their wealth. But how many of them married their partners for impure reasons.
And I've met some guys that think they can fucking do the same thing with me. OK, that's like F.U.C.K.E.D UP!
But truthfully it broke my heart, seeing my own race & nation is now like this. They are so giving off such hatred towards western culture, and saying they are going to keep the eastern culture heritage. And soon afterwards they are claiming being modern & non-ortodhox by taking adoption of some western culture & adapt/modifying those onto their own culture. Yet, from what I've seen. What they took just only the bad thing or something that needs some regulation without taking the regulation along with it.
I never thought my coming-back to my own country would be this painful and shocking for me.
Labels: culturshock, foreigner, Indonesia